Good evening! How has everyone been? I hope you all had a lovely Hump-day.
At the office, I enjoyed a salad and the best taco/wrap ever.
The key to amazing avocado? A sprinkle of sea salt brings out the flavor like cuh-ray-zee. And after my lunch, I enjoyed a piece of baklava from a local Mediterranean restaurant!
After lunch, I got some more work done and then dropped the puppy off at home before babysitting. And Jeremy was home! He finished his exams and will be at home sporadically over the next few weeks before I move out. So nice to see one of my best friends
During the afternoon/babysitting, I nibbled on a piece of dark chocolate, a pear, a handful of crackers, and a large brownie that I made with the kids!!
In order to get rid of some of the brownie, I went for a swim once I was relieved of nanny duties. I did a quick 2000m in 30 minutes and headed out of the pool. I haven’t swam in a while (I haven’t been in the mood) but I was today and it felt great to be back in the water. I also thought the chlorine would serve the dual purpose of killing my face rash (it is marginally better now).
And eventually after my swim I was hungry so I made a light dinner that was kickin’.
So why the title of tonight’s post? No, I am not referring to an ex boyfriend (who shall remain anonymous) or the infamous cheating on a diet. I am actually referring to cheating on your relationship with yourself.
I was swimming and had 100m left in my warm-down and considered skipping it, cheating. Who would know? No one but myself.
But then I would be cheating myself. If the point of my epic change was to improve my health and fitness, it was a commitment to change my relationship with myself and improve it. So if I cheat during a workout, who am I really hurting? Myself. I am cheating on myself. I am the only one who can be hurt in the end by cheating on my relationship with myself. So while skipping 100m in a swim might not be a huge deal, it made me think of other ways I sometimes short change myself and end up hurting myself. When you don’t put yourself on the top of your priority list, you are cheating on yourself. If you don’t give your body the rest and recovery you need, you are cheating on yourself. If you eat something and then feel guilty and depressed about it, you are cheating on yourself. Engaging in behavior that damages your health and overall well being is damaging to your relationship with yourself. Healthy living, to me, is all about my relationship with myself and my journey to love myself. You have to love yourself and commit to loving yourself without cheating.
In the end, it is all up to me. I am the only one who can improve, or damage, my relationship with myself.