Oh I had an early morning! I woke up an hour earlier than usual, which would have been fine if I had fallen asleep on time. But no, even the melatonin didn’t even work. And I think I know why. Before bed I was packing up my stuff for the gym, etc. and getting organized and I started having a body image crisis. I try not to “fat talk” myself and really try to feel good about myself, but some days not even Operation Beautiful works. I kept myself up last night because I was upset about what I look like. Some days I can’t forget the way I used to look 70 lbs ago and I still don’t like how I look now, which is a huge improvement from before. But there are days when I feel ugly, fat, and like a failure. And I can’t believe I wasted sleep on this last night! But it put me in a funk, of course. I woke up tired, sluggish, and still feeling down.
Ate a snack, pre-gym:
When I got to the gym, I absolutely did not want to do my planned 4 mile run, so I got on the stair stepper, which I HATE. I don’t know what possessed me to do this. But, not surprisingly, I hated it and didn’t even break a sweat in 15 minutes. By this point I was more awake and feeling better about life (endorphins!) so I saw a cute boy and an empty treadmill conveniently next to him! What was I supposed to do? So I ran a nicely paced mile and called my workout quits to get ready for my morning. I ate my breakfast in the car while commuting over to the court house complex.
Clearly I’m on a fruit kick this morning!
Got out to the complex and found my way to the substitute teacher orientation. I am happy to report that, after 4 of the most boring and pointless hours of my life, I am a “Guest Teacher” (not substitute, we have fancy names!) for Va Beach! Oh but I have to wait 1-2 weeks for an “approval letter” to come by mail (even though, technically, we’re approved once we complete the orientation). So I turned in my application the 2nd week of January and I still have to wait 1-2 weeks before I can start working. How absurd! But the orientation was painfully dull and full of college students/recent grads (like yours truly) and middle aged stay-at-home moms who were bored. It was a weird dynamic. And seriously, these middle aged women asked SO MANY STUPID QUESTIONS. Now, “there is no such thing as a stupid question” but I’m sorry — if the question has been answered once or twice before, don’t ask again! LISTEN! Rant over. I ate this snack during our break at 11am:
Came home to make myself a yummy lunch, moving on to get some veggies and beans in my diet.
And some pumpkin yogurt!
Tastes like cold pumpkin pie in a bowl. What could be better??
I am certainly not a low-carb zombie, but I feel like I’ve eaten a lot of carbs lately. Pasta twice this weekend, bread on my black bean burger last night, and this morning at breakfast. BUT, the TJ’s tortillas are low-carb (picked up accidentally, but joyfully) and I’m enjoying them. They’re awesome and make me feel a little better about my intake. Some days you just need a piece of bread At least they’re whole wheat carbs!!
The construction noises from my bathroom renovation were too much to take so I am taking refuge in Panera. I was going to go into the office this afternoon post-orientation, but they’re having a slow day and said to not bother. Therefore, afternoon free! If only I had friends in Va Beach… so instead I settle for people watching and blogging at Panera. To compensate for the free WiFi I’m using, I got myself a treat: a soy latte!! I wish they had sizes, though. This is huge!
Toodles, bloggies! I’ll be back later!